Monday, October 26, 2009

Sth I wrote looong ago...

The light grows dimmer, the glow slowly disappears. My breaths gets weaker and weaker. Who knew, it would end like this.. least of all me, as I lay on the floor, tears rolling down my face in a never ending chase to reach the ground... Like a circle coming to an end, only that the end is nigh, and there is no starting point again...

My feeling were now empty, like a cup that was full minutes ago, only to have its contents poured away. Nothing mirrored how I felt, except that of a shattered glass, falling to the ground. No one can ever fix it... no one can ever mend it.... I could not, and will never be able to pick up the pieces to put it back together, and as I let it get swept away.. I just let it go...

They say happiness comes when you least expected it... so I let it come.. but it never did. Or did it just past me by while I wallow in self pity and in its deprivation, missed the gust of many other fleeting moments? Time heals everything, another old saying... give it time.. but has Father Time forgotten about me? Will I forever be stuck in the entropy of this dark black hole and let Mother Nature runs its course and wear me down till the end?...

Facing the real world is tough, living a lie is tough, being strong for others is tough..Pray tell, when will it ever be easy then..

As my vision disappears.. as my thoughts disarray themselves.. as my lungs take its in its final breath of fresh air.. I finally understood the secret to it all... the agony and pain, the neverending sorrow.. and I let it all go...

THE END...

2 comments:

Chang Boon said...

Apa ini? Mood swing kah?

jonie said...

last time la... haha.. found it while clearing the HDD